Just got diagnosed

I just turned 21 & I got hsv-2 from someone I loved& trusted. I’m having a really hard time coping. Any advice?

I struggle with depression & addiction. My life was starting to get good. I can’t stop crying & I feel so gross. I’m a stripper so it literally fucks up how I make money. I know shit happens but I’ve been so careful with sex. The guy doesn’t really care & idk what to do. I’m scared nobody will love me now, but love is all I want. Help lol