Does anyone else feel like they don’t have the words to describe what they are feeling? Like there’s no proper words to describe the emptiness and void.

I just feel a loss of words today to describe how I feel (or don’t feel) - I think I’ve exhausted myself with trying to explain to therapists. Doctors. Friends.

It’s an emptiness, a loss of awareness, a void - that there are no words for. It’s profound loss of understanding of yourself, of the world. I feel like nothing makes sense at all anymore. It’s an endless day with no story to it. It’s a body with no life in it. It’s a mind that is blank. It’s emotions that aren’t there anymore.

The wild dreams continue. They are so real. They’re more real than my actual life. And the cycle repeats day after day for years, no resolution or change. An endless white box - an endless loss of your inner and outer world - an endless void of nothing. I don’t exist in the same world as everyone else. My body is not here, and neither is my mind. There’s no fear, there’s no panic. There’s nothing.

I think the only words that accurately describes this life is - loss of soul. My soul is buried, every fiber of my being inaccessible, every memory and identifiable traits. It’s all buried 10ft under and I’m on ground level. Like an iceberg.