I'm an 18 y/o bi guy in Iran with a femboy/trans boyfriend. We're in love but hiding. Any tips or support would mean a lot.

Hey everyone. I'm an 18-year-old bisexual guy living in Iran. My boyfriend/best friend is 17. We've been together for a while, and he's exploring his identity—he’s more of a femboy right now but might be trans. He’s still figuring it out. The thing is... we live in one of the most homophobic countries in the world. We have to keep everything a secret. Our families can never know. We can’t hold hands in public. Even texting feels risky. Everything we do is in hiding. It’s terrifying, and sometimes I just wish we could breathe without looking over our shoulders. I’ve also been through some really rough stuff growing up—bad grades, being insulted and hit by my parents, anger issues, and depression. I have passive suicidal thoughts sometimes, and I don’t always know how to deal with it. But when my boyfriend plays with my hair, I feel calm. It’s the only thing that makes the noise in my head go quiet. I even get aroused then, but not really during sex or kissing. I think it’s because hair play feels safe, and I never had that growing up. I'm also a furry, which adds another layer of being misunderstood or judged. but my fursona makes me feel like me- safe, expressive, and strong in ways I can't always be in real life. I guess I just wanted to ask: • Are there any other queer people in dangerous countries here? • How do you keep your love alive while hiding it? • How do I support my boyfriend with his identity without overwhelming him? • And how do I deal with all this built-up emotion, shame, and fear while still trying to be a good partner? I’m not asking for a miracle—I just want to hear from someone who understands. Even just reading your stories would help. Thanks for listening.