I look terrible facially so i never go out

6ft

M34

Kiss-less virgin

Slim/small framed af bones for shoulders and stick arms with some pudge on abdomen

Long legs short torso (tho my legs have gotten thick and very defined and hairy the past year I didn’t do anything but walk a lot) but I still look lanky in clothes

Black hair high receding hairline but its thick and stylable somewhat but messy type

10-3 years ago I always Used to have white clear skin and looked well/healthy in the mirror but now I look bloated, dull/yellowy and fucked with bags and a pink nose*

Iv gained weight but the scale says I weigh less

◾️ I think I have potential to look alot better facially but cutting back on weed and scotch ain’t done shit

I never go out during the day and most nights just the shop late night

I won’t even answer the door to the postman when 10 years ago i worked in a pub 6 days/nights a week

◾️ once I seen a guy I know who I last seen in 2015 he’s a nice dude but I overheard him say to my dad “is he alright? He looks fucked now”

i smoke 0.25c of weed a day and have 3 cigarettes in between with 20cl of scotch mixed with a can of coke a night to watch tv with and then bed at around 2am

Tried going to bed earlier and less scotch but didn’t do shit either after 8 months

I feel 100% everyday not hungover at all tho

Just that I can’t go out, I only to go the shop over the road at night and ALWAYS have my hood up and a snood over my face partly (the shop guys let me do this thankfully)

▪️ I havnt looked at myself in any reflection or mirror since April 2023 as it will make me feel worse

I stay up until 3-4am every night but I feel he best and less anxious at them times

I have £5k saved but how can I use that to improve my looks?