M30 Not really sure what to do about my mom. Details below

Ok so my mom and I haven’t had a great relationship for the past 20 years. It’s been off and on. When I was 19 or so, she told me about a bag of sex toys she had (it was background on a fight her and her husband were having then) and mentioned one of them could be controlled by somebody else. Didnt really think anything of it at the time honestly.

Flash forward, haven’t spoken to her in years. Still think about that, wishing I had asked questions or tried something. Even just looking for the bag and seeing what she had. Now I can’t help but wanting to fuck her and just do everything but I don’t really want to start talking to her outside of sexually. Not sure what to do, anybody have any ideas? Need some help!