Day 17

Day 17. Although I'm able to sleep, there was only about 3 hours to be had last night. Our old dog had a horrible night, we stayed up all night and had to put her down first thing this morning. First, I still don't feel anywhere close to normal. The lethargy and depression suck but I've certainly accepted that this is the path I need to walk and I'm likely only a week or two from some large break through. Second, this was an emotionally difficult day that I was able to cope with and not experience a single moment where I considered going to get a shot. I felt it all and was a present husband and father. For that, I'm really thankful. For those of you in the struggles of the first few days, you aren't alone and there are a lot of us that can commiserate with the darkness. One foot in front of the other, have faith it will get better every day. When you are in the midst of the shittiness, you can't even feel the progress you are making. But if you aren't taking kratom, you are making progress. If I can do it, you certainly can. For those of you further along in the journey, thank you for the inspiration and we look to you as a model for our own sobriety and the betterment of our lives.