torture

not only was i doomed from losing a coinflip but my own shitty body also loves to punish me for it too. ive been extra dysphoric for days about my chest and theres no way i could get top surgery soon, but of course i also have to be getting cramps right before bed that prevent me from sleeping. i can't even talk about it at hrt appointments because the cramps are so common for poons and not usually a bad sign afaik so they never know what to actually do about it. i have to fucking put up with a bundle of flesh inside of me torturing me for the crime of being a wombynly feminine afab pxrsxn forever