Confession/TedTalk taking accountability for quitting the marines along with how it affected me and why i still want to serve but this time going to the Army and how the condition of the bay area is influencing my need to do something with my life

The camaraderie of my platoon and my drill instructors were amazing and ill never forget it the little things they have shown me ill just say on my end taking accountability. I wasn't thinking smart I scored a 31 on the asvab and only had Motor T and admin as my jobs but yet again that's my fault as well rushing through the process and not studying well enough before i went , so when i arrived at bootcamp i was constantly comparing myself to my squamate's jobs during that time and ruining my own ambition not knowing if i graduated and did some time in the fleet other you can qualify for certain side jobs . Like for example one of my good friends from bootcamp he had the same MOS and Asvab score as me, also adding he had shin splints and got dropped and also had to stay at mcrd for a extra month , he ended up graduating and within a year he got a side job as a range master . Some will be jealous and make excuses seeing that from home 6 months or a year from separating under my conditions or other ways but i had to be mad at myself and take initiative for my stupid mistakes at the grown ass age of 23 -25 lol. Its not that i know better now i always knew better but i was being a child and thinking i can go back home and do better lmao all that shit i was talking in SEPS came back to bite me in the ass each time. I cant go out like that my clock is ticking man i don't wanna be a could've been and be like everybody else out here in the bay area . Seeing these guys and girls in their late 20s, earlier 30s , or even older than that outside of a store or downtown somewhere 24/7 doing nothing with their lives , dope fiends who been smoking nd homeless since the 80s, just all types of dumb shit out here and everyday is a reminder to why i got to find a way to GTFOH job wise border patrol was also on my list since i get to travel and shit but you get that picture sorry for the paragraph i hope that gives you a clear understanding from my psyche and just getting a view into my life for second