Sober please

Title: Waking Up to Day 1 – I Want Out of This Life

Hey, Waking up today and deciding this is Day 1 for me.

I’ve been stuck in a cycle of using — coke, weed, vape (probably spice) — mostly at night. I tell myself every day I’m done, and then night hits and I slip. I struggle with my mental health too, and it feels like I’m either numb or overwhelmed, with no in-between.

But I’m tired. I don’t want this version of life anymore.

I don’t know exactly what I’m doing, but I know I don’t want to keep living like this. I want to be sober. I want to feel real again. Just writing this feels weird, but I’m hoping someone out there relates.

Any advice or just a “keep going” would help. Thanks for reading. – Here’s to Day 1.