Why does putting yourself out there feel so embarrassing!Is this self sabotage?(Dating)

I've been in my single girl era for some time now,and lets just say it was becoming a lonely girl era 🤣So my friend suggested joining a dating app. I had fun setting up my account and everything. I got a few matches and I was getting to know them,a few of them were quite flirty...well most of them. The fact that I was talking to like quite a few men made me feel so like,like a player or even a cheater which doesn't make any sense really because I wasn't seeing any of them, and it had only been like a day or so. Anyway I had to delete all of them cuz it was just making me feel so ....icky. So now I'm right back to my single girl era. I'm a bit annoyed that I didn't get even one date but the thoughts of downloading the app again makes me feel a bit...embarrassed. Like it felt dirty or something, cuz all the conversations get right to it if ygm,so its so hard to get to know them! Why is dating embarrassing when I literally want to date🤣😭🤣😭