This is what you wanted

I’m at a lose of what to say really. I thought you would maybe send some sort of message, knowing today was a big day for me. But not a word. Not a peep. I don’t think you ever really loved me, just used me to fill a space in your life. For me it was love and still is. I miss you now and wonder how you are. If you’ve ate or drank water today. I wonder if you followed through with counseling or if you forgot that like you did me.