This is just my life now…

I’ve been dealing with Bartholin Cysts for almost 4-5 years. My trigger for my mine is arousal unfortunately. Nothing else triggers them, or unless I walk too much. As soon as I get aroused I get immense pain in both sides, one I am able to drain quite easily just in the shower, the one is the one I’ve had an issue with and I’ve had to have surgically drain (which I was put under for, with 4-6 weeks of rest) it just does not budge. Unfortunately here I am AGAIN, I get these almost monthly. I did the stupid thing of sitting in a hot bath, which might help other but for me it makes it just balloon and fills it with more fluid and swells my whole vagina, making it 10x worse. I can’t walk, sit, lay without it hurting. So instead I took an ice bath last-night as I saw a couple of people say that it helped them. It helped numb the area and maybe go down slightly, but not much. Slept and it’s sort of gone down, but again not much. I’m drinking a stupid amount of water, I’ve had a Cocao (which I drink daily anyway to help inflammation) my partner is going to go down and get me some Turmeric 1000mg tablets and JSHealth Vaginal Probiotic tablets. I’m going to have just a warm bath later, so not too cold, not too hot. I might not even eat, just to detox my body and just fill it with water and vitamins and ibuprofen. I had a small cry from pain last night because it literally felt like my vagina was going to explode 🙄 I used to cry from being frustrated and not accepting the situation and doing anything to get it to go down and wondering if I’ll be like this forever and honestly… that might just be it. I might be like this forever. I’ve dealt with it so long, it’s so normal to me now. I don’t really have that emotional attachment to it anymore. I know it’s there and it is frustrating but, until something magically makes it poof and disappear, I’ll have to just deal with it and keep trying new things and just wait it out each time I have a flare up. Like any chronic illness, it just happens. Stressing doesn’t help either. We need to stay calm and just get through it, do what we can and see what works for us individually. Trial and error. We got this ❤️