Im tired of everything

Ok let me start by saying hello everyone and thank you for creating this sub. Let me also say something that may be harsh for some of you however, I wish I didn't have kids! My kids are adults now and I am so tired of worrying about them. All i do is worry if they are ok, if they are safe, if people are treating them right, did they eat good, is their mental health good, and did i raise them right. It's none freaking stop like I cannot control it. Im tired of it! I would love to just worry about myself! Just me for change. Why cant I just worry about me for a short moment. I have no more freaking patience for their shit. Im tired of giving them advice, money and my time. Like I want to be selfish and take care of just me me and me. Perimenopause has really taking my patience to another level. Sometimes I don't even know who I am anymore. Believe me I love my children to life but today I regret having them. I feel so guilty saying this but I had to share it with people who can relate. Ok all done. Thanks for listening....