I don’t know what to do at this point.

So I’m 41 (almost 42) and I am riddled with the tism and ADHD so navigating whether or not a man is interested in me has proven rather difficult my whole adult life. I didn’t have a boyfriend in high school, but I probably could have but signals weren’t clear enough back then.

Now here I am, in my 40s and I am stuck in a conundrum. I recently realized a friend is showing interest in me in a romantic-maybe-way and I wouldn’t mind pursuing that. But I don’t know how to tell him. He does live two hours away, but I don’t mind that. When I go up to see him and our other friends, I’ve been staying at his house, and it’s not uncomfortable at all. A few of us went out to Colorado together in April as well.

So how do I go about locking this down? Or should I wait to see what he does? God I’m so nervous about this. Because I really don’t want to mess up our friendship but I don’t think it would. But I’m also kinda loopy. (Manic depressive at times.) I don’t know if he would be able to handle me when I’m depressed. Because it’s real dark.

Help please.