[M4F] Breeding kink starting to feel like my purpose than just a kink

It doesn't matter what I have accomplished in my life, it doesn't matter what I do, something feels like it is missing without indulging my breeding kink. I had an ex who hated this kink, disgusted by it and found it degrading so I haven't been able to indulge it. I tried my best to repress these thoughts, not think about it but I fear that this has only made it more and more intense. Now all I can think about some days is the thought that my big cock was made to breed and nothing else. To hold someone close and truly make them mine.

The animalistic passion is growing more and more, the older I get the more I want it and I fear that it will drive me insane before long. It just that without the risk, the intimacy and the passion, something is definitely missing. Like I can't truly be connected with a partner without the chance of breeding. I don't know why I think this, why it consumes my thoughts my dreams but it definitely has unbelievable power over my desires. I don't know if anyone else feels like breeding is more of a purpose in life than just a kink.