have you ever been bullied? does it still effect you?

personally I’ve been made fun of for my looks (natural curls and freckles) all throughout middle school and high school where I was mostly made fun of for my interests 🫠🫠 (cats, comic writing and poetry) I think it does still impact me especially about my appearance, I’ve changed a lot like chemically straightened my hair, I wear makeup every day and idk I just feel like a weirdo and that everyone clocks me as other and an outsider immediately