A question to those who’ve commited zina in the past…

Salam

I have a question for those of who’ve done zina in the past. When I was younger, I made zina a deal breaker in my search because of many different reasons. But as I’ve gotten older over decided that I can’t make that a deal breaker anymore, as I’m approaching 30 and the pool is getting smaller.

So my question is this. Those who’ve commited Zina and got married, how often do you think about your past experiences? Do you have memories of them? Do you look back at them fondly and think those were good times and you had fun? Or do you think about them with disgust? Or not think about them at all as if they are a distant memory? Do you find yourself comparing your spouse to that person? Do you think about the person that you’ve done zina with?

I ask these questions because I feel like these are some of the reasons people get rejected based on their past.

I’ve talked to people saying that they do in fact have very vivid memories from their past, so I’m just curious