34 [F4M] Something different, for a change.

Come sit, lean forward. I come with intentions.

The days are long, the nights are short, and sleep is hard to come by. Life keeps me awake (as it always does), minsan akala mo nagbabantay ng kalawakan kung magtrabaho.

I've been by myself for a hot minute, and the bed is usually cold. Sometimes I want to escape my own life, sometimes I want to escape my self that I can put down the masks and be no one else—not the employee, child, friend, volunteer, or student—I can just be me.

Or maybe I want a warm body next to me when I fall asleep for the long run. Or a space to run to and cry for help, unload and scream. Life is hard, but life is also rich with friends, peers, and acquaintances. Everyone puts in an effort to make me feel less alone... until they all return home to their lives and families, and sure, I have my family and a life to live.

Just no one to share it with, maybe? Oh well.

Or maybe turn the "oh well" and the "one day someday" into "finally" and "Day One." Wouldn't it be nice, don't you think?

I don't do this a lot, but if anything:

I am in my mid thirties working in public service and in 3L. The plan is to be able to take the Bar by 2028 or 2029 if I get really, really lucky. That being said, two things: my schedule is full, and it is tight. I only ever talk to one, or none. Not the biggest fan of rosters. Not a fan of treating men like they are things.

There are people who have time, money, and energy for rosters. I don't have the time to keep a wardrobe rotation of people who might not even be around by the time 2025 ends. If there is no one, let there be no one; none of us have time to waste.

When I don't sit and think, I read. I believe reading and writing are solitary activites and prefer doing them alone. My brain is half brainrot, half depth. Somehow I can't sit still for a movie unless it's a school requirement, but have it in me to listen through podcasts, What's in My Bag, and A Day in My Life.

My politics is liberal leaning, that abortion should be an available option, and people should be allowed to marry whoever it is they want to marry. My parents did not rally 40+ years ago for me to take it all for granted.

Side quests include: volunteering for socio-civic causes, having been a choir girl, clubbing during school breaks, walking long distance or running when I don't need to use my brain so much. There's collages and illustration and other creative pursuits, but they are mostly for me to use and consume.

Physically, my face card is lukewarm; I have been told repeatedly that I look like I am in my mid twenties. Is it gaslighting? Maybe its Maybelline; I don't know.

If you're still reading and you're interested: good! Chances are you're in it for personality, not the face card. Shall I go on? :)

I've disclosed enough about me, so ideally your minimum age is 27 and no more than 35. You must be single. Huwag mo hintayin na hingan ka ng CENOMAR. Ideally no one is lying about here; it would be an embarrassment if one were found out.

Come as you are, with a semi-lethal face card. I would like to think my life is interesting, so the minimum requirement is to be equally, if not more interesting.

I would be more interested in you if you are: a Creative, in Finance, a law student, a Bar Candidate, a Lawyer, or a Chef. Sa totoo lang I used to not understand why lawyers want to date chefs, so I apologize for not understanding their game. I get it now.

Hell, if you are not an actual chef, but cook and want people to have a taste of your food? Adopt me. I would be a happy house guest.

You must reside or have a place of residence in: Parañaque, Pasay, Manila, Makati, of Mandaluyong. I can bring food, conversation, and a good time. Saying I got this or I'll cover everything is nice but not mandatory.

Steamy upon request. Sweet by default. Spicy once instructed.

Heavy on consent. Informed, freely given, without coercion, and continuous. I come with no cheating kink; leave me out of your entanglements and extramarital affairs. Careful and caring for those who are qualified to try. ;)

Knowing your Big 3 or Big 6 would be nice, but not required.

Non negotiables: kung kupal ka, naghahanap ng kabit, glucose guardian, kiss and tell, or lack the necessary requirements to consider yourself a decent and respectful human being, please press the back button.

I like my Filipino Pride, so foreigners please: to the side.

I promise: I won't bite (unless you want me to). :)