Sunmi

It's hard to know you never felt the way I did. Why did you lie to me? Why did you say you felt everything I did? I could have avoided this heart break, anger, and depression. You made me feel so used and unwanted. When you called me on the phone recently and we talked for 5 and half hours. All I wanted to do was yell at you and tell you how much you hurt me. How I know you better than anyone. But I guess I never really knew you at all. I have such a soft spot for you, the love of my life, that all that anger completely dissipated when I heard your voice. You dropped me so easily for someone else. I had planned my life around you. I wanted nothing more than to be there for you day in an day out forever. You hurt me so bad Sunmi. I'll never be the same. How can you be so cold and calculated. Then have the nerve to ask "can we still be friends?" Know how deeply I felt for you. I will never love another woman the way I loved you. I will never be as openly vulnerable to another woman again. You've taken love away from me. I loved you so carelessly, so wholeheartedly, how could I have been so naive. Still I want nothing more than to have you back in my life. You were the woman for me. I found you already and now you are gone for good and you couldn't care less, you are spending your time with another. How could I have loved you unconditionally and still get hurt and discarded? I don't want to love again. People say you get over it with time. You scarred me for life. The walls I've built due to your carelessness with my heart will never come down. I love you all the same until forever.