My Life Is Falling Apart, I'm Losing It

Ever since my ex fiance had an affair and I left her, I've been slowly losing everything. We were supposed to move out of state together and get married in October, and I put all my eggs in one basket. I wasn't expecting to be stuck here. She left me with no home, no job, no car and I'm down to my last $1000.

Her affair left me hurt more than I've ever been hurt before. It was literally the worst thing that's ever happened to me, the love of my life ruining our entire future together over a guy she supposedly didn't even like. Just needed an "easy yes" from someone outside of our relationship. We were two weeks away from leaving this hell hole and so we didn't renew our lease. I'm currently staying with friends for the next few months until I can get back on my feet, but they have a family. I can't stay here forever. I'm grateful to them, but not having my own home after being the bread winner for 7 years has really hurt my pride.

I was on temporary disability with my last job, but that's ended and I have no money coming in. I've been looking for work since she and I broke up. I turned down a job recently that was going to pay very well for a job I thought I'd like more. They had me do a "trial day," told me it was for me to see if I liked the position then we could move forward. This was on Wednesday, however, they neglected to tell me that they had others coming in to do a trial day themselves. I'm under consideration and in competition with other people, I have no idea if I'm getting the job or not, but I'm praying that I do. I've been throwing out so many applications the past few days, just begging God for someone to hire me. I'm stuck in limbo with no money coming in at all, except for the plasma I'm donating.

I put $3000 down on a car from a dealership. I figured, hey, if something goes wrong immediately they'll help to fix it. I was wrong. It broke down within two weeks, which they did fix that issue for free, but now I'm having AC issues. It is currently 110 degrees where I live, and the AC repairs could cost me $1700 or more, which I'll have no choice but to put on credit. The dealership refuses to help me with this at all. My last car was just fine, but she let me sell it before confessing to her affair. This new car is a POS and it's extremely depressing.

I have about $1000 left in the bank. I have just enough to get me through this month, but after that I'm screwed. The anti depressants were doing their job, helping me feel motivated and taking away any suicidal thoughts for the past couple of months. But with how bad things have been getting, the thoughts are back in full force and I'm seriously considering just ending it all. I'm tired of this, tired of all the effort I'm putting in just to have life kick me in the balls over and over again. I'm seriously at a loss for what to do next. I'm lucky to have friends that care about me as much as they do and I'm grateful, but fuck man. What do I actually fucking do????