struggling to see homeschooling as bad when i had nobody to compare it to

i was around other kids as an actual child so i don't know if it even counts. but as a teenager i was almost completely isolated. only child too. now i can't drive, don't have a job, am forced to stay home alone for decent periods of time. it's uncommon i see any other humans outside of family. everyone in my family and any online friends i had have always had it objectively worse than me. i've had people tell me i'm so lucky to be homeschooled or so lucky to live in isolation, that they would want that kind of life. i'm used to the loneliness so i don't know if it affects me. i feel guilty. my parents are not abusive either (maybe a little neglectful) which makes it a bit harder to see homeschooling as bad too. i want to see homeschooling as a bad thing but i don't know how when it's all i know at this point.

kind of a rant/vent, but also does anyone else relate to this and what did you do about it?