Seeking advice from trans dads (especially ones who carried their kids)

Howdy,, thanks for taking the time to read. I just sorta am looking to talk with some trans dads, particularly those who carried their kids into the world themselves (or the partners of folks who have)

I'm 25 and engaged, and so so happy with my (FTM) partner- I'm just finally at a point where I'm so ready to settle down. A lot of my friends are having babies, and word's can't describe how bad I want to as well.

I historically have been terrified to be pregnant. Now that I've been on T for about 6 years, it makes me admittedly more nervous than before in some ways (for my body and for the baby) but I'm less scared in others ways (just like mentally). I also live in the south- a more blue area thankfully but still.

The main thing I'm concerned about would be our health. I hate surgery but I definitely think C-section would probably be preferred and safer? My PCP is amazing and does fertility stuff, and she would absolutely be an ally I could reply on. The Gyno at my local hospital is a great dude too- saw him once and he genuinely was so chill and affirming?? So like... I think I have a team that would help me and make me feel safe and happy and make sure my baby and I made it through okay.

I know it's a very slow, exhausting process. I know I'll need to go off T for a minimum of two years- I admittedly couldn't afford a baby now anyways. But that's why I'm starting my research now- so maybe before I'm 30 we can have one.

We wanted to adopt but have lost hope of being accepted as parents literally just because we're a FTM couple. So like, if my options are no kids or be pregnant- I'm starting now. 3-4 years is definitely enough time for me to start getting my body in shape to handle something like that I would think. I'm also starting therapy specifically for like all of this, and I'm doing a lot of research

I guess just advice, tips, experiences- anything that might help is very appreciated! I'm having trouble finding resources, wonder why 🙃

I'll also obviously be looking at resources intended for those who identify as moms/women- some things will probably be a little different for me/my body but a lot of if not most other things will still apply I'm sure.

Anyways- thanks again for reading