Gratitude

Hi guys, my journey or experience with alcohol I know has not been as devastating as many of you. But the depression, anxiety and self loathing were real with a couple of traumatizing situations sprinkled in there. I was and am not an every day drinker. But the occasions I did, it was overdone, some would say I was just having fun. But my personality says I was out of character and the self hatred I felt towards myself was so tangible. I found this community about 2-3 months ago but only active for the past week because of my last stint with alcohol last week. Today was the first day I felt happy in awhile, first day I felt like there's sunlight. It's because of all of you, (your experiences gave me a sense of community) and reading my journal. I encourage you to be your best friend, write and journal your experiences and thoughts, the good and bad. At intervals reflect on what you've written and maybe in those pages you'll have the courage to carry on. Being reminded of your ambitions both great and small. I encourage all of you to love yourself today. When you become yr best friend you'll want the best for you because we all want best for our buddy/buddies.

Thank you all so much for the hope and encouragement you've given me. I send you all love and light. I wish for each of you the sobriety you desire and for those of you who have achieved it, may you continue to have the strength to maintain it.

I will not with you today nor tonight nor tomorrow.