I was assaulted by my own parents and family as a baby and I meed advice

Hey there I (43 F/M/R) was out screaming in the woods because of the wrangler trauma im dealing with and must have unlocked some trauma from my first 2 years of life. Its hard to talk about, especially because Im a recently self diagnosed autistic male/female/reindeer with ADHD and neurodivergence. Here goes nothing.......... when i was a baby my mom, dad, grandparents and several other people changed my diaper without my consent. I DIDNT CHOOSE THIS! How could the people that are supposed to take care of me do this? How do i carry on with my life now? How do I go to my 3 hour a day 4 day a week job? You think its easy to make coffee with this literal trauma in my mind all the time? It's bad enough I have to live around MAGA nazi fascist dead namers all the time and now I have something else triggering my aggressive autism. Please help and send positive non gender confirming vibes my way because I just can't deal right now.