Do I stay on hormones?

I'm almost 4 weeks on HRT, and I'm still unsure if I'm trans or not. I don't know if I want to keep going or not, but I'm going to take another shot tonight anyways. My dosage is a low 0.1mL. When I first started I thought that I could feel something happening. Now I'm beginning to think it's placebo.

I just keep thinking "there is no way a cis man would go this far. No way they would actually think about transition for 11 years, setup an apointment with a informed consent service, get hormones, and then inject those hormones with a needle." I thought that me doing this would just prove I'm trans. I kind of really want to be trans, but at the same time I don't.

I have a "gender therapist" but she is kind of terrible at her job. I keep going back to her, and I've never really been to another gender therapist, but she just seems like a normal therapist. She doesn't even focus on helping me figure out my gender identity.