So I'm a puer. And I don't know what to do because I think it's so bad that I don't want to get better.

So I watched Dr. K's player videos and realized that this archetype describes me. Almost too well. The thing is, And I know this is a puer trap but I don't know how to handle it, I do think it probably is more worthwhile to die than grow. I mean, I have basically no interest in becoming a functional member of Society. Which I know is pathetic to say, but I'd rather be pathetic. Ultimately, life is optional, and I feel like it's pretty valid just to not want to. It's not like there's some deeper reason to, other than maybe I'll find it worth it.