Does anyone else experience this? Help

Hi, I’m amab and identify as a trans woman and nonbinary along with genderfluid and genderqueer. All these labels are right for me and my gender does fluctuate day to day. I been experimenting with pronouns again lately and for a while I used She/They or They/Them. Now I been adding He, which usually would make me dysphoric. However when i present nonbinary, most of the time i present as Masc-Androgynous so sometimes He feels right along with They. I’ve tried, He/They/She, They/He/She for when I feel masc and nonbinary and even She/They/He for when I feel more like a woman. I love them all. However as mentioned, He still tends to make me hella dysphoric and I want to be He, not as a man but as a nonbinary masc individual or whatever gender I present at times. I know there’s a lot of people who use He but don’t identify as a man but how can I not get dysphoria and embrace my nonbinary masculinity and acknowledge that it is a thing. My brain keeps telling me at times that it makes me a man I guess😞. Is it something that’s out of my control?

Also if you have an experience like this with pronouns where you have them and sometimes they tend to make you dysphoric I’d love to hear your story.