Sunday was pretty chill until I watched a Spider-Man movie

I was watching Spider Man No Way Home and got to the scene where Peter is apologizing for the spell thing and MJ says something along the lines of hey, no worries at all, I get it. Just maybe run it by us next time. For some reason, that made me feel like I was going to cry , ended up letting loose and the tears flooded out. The weird thing is that it wasn’t sad, but something about it broke me open. I asked Chat why it hit me so hard and it pointed out that the moment is pure unconditional understanding. No lecture, no anger, just “I still believe in you.” Then it gave me some reflective questions about how mistakes were handled when I was younger, whether I still feel nervous about disappointing people, if I ever felt like I had to hide parts of myself to be accepted and whether moments of genuine kindness feel almost too emotional to handle whenever I see them(which I’ve noticed they do). Going through those questions made me realize that a lot of us who grew up as witnesses might not see how deeply the lack of unconditional acceptance shaped us. When we made mistakes it wasn’t usually our parents sitting us down to be kind, supportive and try to understand us, it was often being sent to the elders to be censored or even disfellowshipped. When you spend years in an environment where love feels conditional based on your performance, obedience or image, even a small act of grace in a movie can feel overwhelming. I think that’s why that scene got me so much and I’m posting this just to say that our emotions are valid and even things we don’t realize affected us may have done a deeper number on us than we think.