one week in: should i stop?

tw: previous suicide attempt ive been going through cycles of anxiety and depression since i was like, 8 years old so i know even when its tolerable, for me, it gets bad again. i have been in therapy quasi consistently for 2 years now with minimal improvement so came to the conclusion i definitely need to be taking something. i was only sitting at like 5/10 depression and anxiety when i went in to my drs. wouldn’t have been able to go in for an appointment if it was worse because i’m afraid of the doctor. i’ve been on 10mg for like 7 days now and at first i had like rlly bad brain fog and increased depression and when i say rlly bad brain fog i mean like id make a snack in the kitchen and then come back a little later and be like “who left this mess in the kitchen?” cause i just wouldn’t remember doing it. and my coworkers kept trying to send me home from work cause they were worried about me but i can’t afford to take time off of work so i am still going. anyways now brain fog is still here (sorry if this is written confusing) but not as bad but i just keep feeling lower and lower. im at like 8.5/10 depressed now and any time ive felt worse than this ive like totally blown my life up. i did take the same dose of fluoxetine for like 2 weeks back in 2021, and i wound up in the er after an attempt 3 days in, but they didn’t admit me. my mom and i had got into a big fight. she doesn’t believe in mental illness so she was saying i was an addict for taking ssris and then she yelled at me for a few hours and then the stuff happened and i went to the er. i was hoping it would be different this time because i didn’t live with my mom anymore but i feel really awful. i take it first thing in the morning so i dont have time to talk myself out of it, but this morning i could barely do it. i feel like im poisoning myself. i’m really scared and i dont know what to do. but i also feel dramatic because the whole reason im even taking them is because ive felt like this bad and worse “au natural” before. idk what i should do.