I am suffering

I need someone to talk to.2 years relationship, gone. She was talking abt how much she missed me a week ago. I was her first and she was my first. I don't understand how someone could switch up so fast. I know girls starts detaching a few months before but if she was unhappy, the adult thing would be to talk about it, not leave. She did left signs and I did felt like something was wrong, I was unsatisfied with the way things were. She didn't even leave, she just stopped replying, her stuff is still at my house, everywhere. But I have the gut feeling it's over, and she won't even give me the chance to mourn. I've passed the stage where my stomach would hurt all the time , couldn't eat, and felt nauseous (3 fucking days eating fucking air), what's left is grief and pain. I don't want to continue. And the worst is is have to work a FUCKASS 10 hour shift EVERY DAY, EVEN ON FUCKING SATURDAYS, with my FUCKASS COWORKERS asking me to work FASTER, with fucking 2 HOURS COMMUTE EVERY DAYS, or else I wont be able to PAY THE BILLS FOR THE YEAR OF UNI COMING UP WHICH I DONT EVEN WANT TO DO ANYWAY. FUCK IM CRASHING OUT