I'm ready to end it

I want to end it now even though I was just invited to do my very first event. I'm excited for it but the want to just not exist anymore is greater.

If nothing comes before the 20th, I will kill myself. I just need to find a quick way that doesn't involve a gun. I was thinking of jumping on a bridge in hopes the impact would kill me instantly. Any recommendations? lol

gad how do i love myself? HAHHAHAHAH I have never felt it so idk how to start hahahahha man I'm so lonely with tons of problems that's why I just want to end it

I just want to be selfish for once but I have no choice but to be selfless.. well i guess staying in my safe bubble for this long is selfish, and I guess having other people's problems is the consequence of it.

well... if I this account is eerily quiet after the 20th, then I'm probably dead

bye everyone lol