Never thought I will ever think of doing it

Lately it's been one issue after another,,,my laptop first got stolen which meant I couldn't finish up my end of year project on time which then lead to me losing my university scholarship in my last year of school of all times this could happen,,,am doing I.T by the way and so a laptop is the most essential tool for my program, now am at home doing nothing,getting another scholarship is not happening anytime soon, i have no work experience, been poor is a fucking curse, I have friends who have been failing since we started school and they are still in their second year, but it's all good for them cause their parents can afford it, life fucking sucks you can never understand people that commit suicide untill you experience a really low point of your life