Questioning my gender

I am currently a teenager in the church. I love the church and love the community the young women have provided for me. But I've not been comfortable with the idea of being a woman for a long time, and I often wish I was born a man. I have a feeling that if I was raised differently I would consider myself a trans man. I have long since considered myself an ally, believing that trans saints' spirits gender do not have to be their sex at birth to be their eternal grnder. But I have a lot of internalized guilt and worry about how I could still participate in the church if I acted on anything. Any advice, personal stories, anything is welcome.