Sometimes I wish I was deaf

Sometimes I wish I were deaf or partially deaf. I love the sounds of birds and my boyfriend’s snores, but I’m just extremely shy. Words are hard to get out, and it’s often difficult to say what I really mean. Sometimes I just stay quiet and smile. Messaging, though, comes easily to me I can pour my heart and soul into my texts. And I do feel like I sound awkward when I speak sign language would be so much easier for me