Is there a term for the female equivalent of getting blueballed? Cause fuck I have no adequate words to describe what I'm feeling. Lust? Horniness? Pain? Desperation? Sadness? Longing? Frustration? Despair? Anger? I literally just want to go outside and cry and scream and complain.

Woke up to the promise of a tribute from someone I'll call Mr. Blue yesterday. Let's just say this one was special, and I was really looking forward to it. Literally got so fcking horny and wet I knew I had to bring my Ferri to work with me to keep me company as I was insatiably amped up. Almost got in late as well T-T since I took an extra couple minutes just playing with my clit in the shower. The entire day, I did my best to discretely play with myself at my desk. My Ferri ran out of battery by noon, so I had to just finger myself for the rest of the day (maybe I need two Ferris..). IT WAS SO FUCKING HARD TO FOCUS ON WORK, KNOWING I WOULD BE GETTING A MASSIVE TRIBUTE SOON. Literally couldn't stop checking my phone for his message.

I check. False alarm. Instead, it's a screenshot of one of my pictures as his lockscreen wallpaper.

BOOOOOOOOOOOOO. But actually, my horny mind just gave me another idea instead and I asked if he would put something even more explicit up and expose me to people. I literally offered him a choice of compromising poses for him to pick from so I could entice him and supply him with the goods. My goal was to get him as horny as I was, so the impending load would be even more satisfying.

He chose one, calling me innocent. I don't know why, but I was so fucking horny at that moment that I took offense to being called innocent and thought it was a challenge (normally I love to be considered innocent!!! I SWEAR). I proved him deadass wrong with my next picture, kneeling, collared and leashed for him. And to drive home my point. I sent him a picture of me masturbating at work, then and there. I had been waiting all morning for the office to slightly clear out a bit so I could take a picture for my own satisfaction.. but I fucking sent it.

We got talking. I teased him like an absolute MONSTER. He reveals he's getting an uber ride home. DINGDINGDING. I demanded him to expose me to the uber driver. Let the driver see all the pictures I was sending Mr. Blue, and plead him to drive that uber faster. I was so fucking deep into that mindset I started flooding him with my nudes. Me throating a cock. The aftermath of me getting thoroughly used and abused by Mr. Affluent. Audios of me... You get the fcking point. I was trying to be the dirtiest slut possible and prove I'm not innocent at all. I wanted to be the ultimate tease, and it felt so safe and thrilling to be exposed to complete strangers halfway across the world. I really hoped Mr. Tenson (uberdriver) enjoyed my pictures and my general horniness..

Eventually, I had to focus up and get back to WORKKK so I stopped checking my phone.

When I got off work, I immediately check and I see a bomb had been dropped. I wouldn't be getting that tribute I had been looking forward to for the entire day until days later. I was so fucking confused. Like am I fcking crazy? The way our entire conversation went up to that point was as if he was heading home to bust a nut for me. And I suddenly find out I don't get my prize until days later because he's busy?!???!!!

I was devastated and apoplectic and voiced my frustration at him. For the rest of the day, I was still so fcking horny but literally could not orgasm to save my life. Even used my tried and true always reliable method of anal+clitoral stimulation, and that still let me down.

Due to our time difference, I knew that I wouldn't be getting an answer until the following day. The day passes. All I get is an "I'm Sorry" and the notification that his account had been deleted.

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKK.

WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY???????????????????? IT COULD HAVE BEEN GLORIOUS AND SO SATISFYINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. T-T ISO MISTER BLUE.

Dear Diary, I'm a thirsty fucking girl, backfired and blueballed? T-T