I threw away my blades for the first time

I’ve been off and on clean for a while now, however I’ve never been able to actually get rid of my blades. I just needed them there, as a back up plan. Typically addict behavior

But for the first time in my whole 7 years with this struggle, I threw them out.

I made a whole thing out of it. I found a prayer centered around self harm recovery. Im not even all that religious, but it felt fitting lol. I treated it like a funeral.

I walked about a mile to a trash can at a bus stop, so I couldn’t be tempted to dig them out. I said my prayer, and then I just tossed them and walked back

I don’t know how to feel about it, but im somewhat proud I think