Therapist kinda Sucks

I have been in therapy for 9 weeks with the same therapist. (Have been in therapy for about my whole life, but just 9 weeks with this therapist) each time i go we always argue about Christianity, and she once said that my sexual assault was a learning experience, and that "I need to be a survivor, not a victim", no words of encouragement, nothing. Just that.

Everytime I go to her, she always does something weird, comments on how im very pretty, that she doesnt want my 'pretty chest' to be scarred(i used to self harm), and that i could be a model. I understand she is attempting to be nice, but it feels..weird?

As said before, she likes to argue with me over my beliefs, I don't believe in god and everything. And she likes to try to convert me, she even said if i kill myself I'll go to hell, and when i said thats messed up and would that mean my grandfathers in hell, she just shrugged. She even said how she "was sent by god to help me".

Then there was this time she got aggravated with me, I said how I wish my life had a plan or something I could live by, she asked if I ever had a plan, and when I said no, she said it was just my fault then. And a few minutes later she told me how not every teenager has a plan in life. When I told her she just told me that it was my fault for not having one, and that I was confused, she just told me I misunderstood her.

She doesnt trust me either, everytime i voice my mental health, she recommends me going to the mental hospital. I'm not in crisis, and most of the time its just thoughts, but everytime she always recommends it and I dont understand why?

It feels like my therapist isn't for me, but it's the only in-person therapist that they have here. And I just don't know what to do? She never talks about how to help me, or ever does help me. She just..idk? Most of the time she just argues with me or tries to give me a half assed diagnosis, that even my doctor says I dont have(she once tried to diagnose me with bpd, but when I told my doctor about it, she said I very much do not have it)

Bleh idk im just frustrated