Should i suicide or become an atheist

Iam having too much problems in life, constant failures, aand facing depression. Iam very religious and pray 5 times a day avoid sins, i chose islam by my choice after researching it scientifically, and i believe it to be true, but why is Allah not helping me relieve my hardships? i have came to the point where iam constantly thinking of suicide because of hopelessness, i know this life is a test and we would be rewarded greatly for our hardships, but why we have to go through this why can't Allah just make our both lifes good why this test, he's All powerful he can do anything, iam having very bad thoughts about Allah but i cant say that because iam afraid that he will burn me for eternity These hardships are making me go towards atheism, and i fear i would become atheist because of these thoughts, So keeping my self safe and end my suffering i think its better to end my life right now than to go to that point i loose my eman and burned for eternity in hell Need support from my brothers iam in so much pain 😭😭😭