Another rejection - “but we will keep you on the books for next time” all while this was next time.

It’s not as bad as previously being approached three times by the one place and then rejected at the last minute but this morning still hurts.

A year ago I had two offers and chose one company because at the time, financially i had to prioritise the pay. It was a terrible move, the project was a disaster and ended abruptly when a client pulled out. A year and a bit later the other role I didn’t pursue is open again and I instantly contacted and had high hopes they would see me and essentially pick up where we left off because it all seemed great back then. Nope not a call for a month just an email saying they thank me for applying and they will keep me on file for next time.

I’m not exactly upset with them, they obviously found who they needed and I’m happy for them and the other person/s but fuck it hurts knowing a year ago I made a decision I regretted and when it came back around again, I can’t get a look in probably because of maybe my time away from the industry and doing something different in the meantime or just timing of when I applied and who was reviewing applications. Or were they offended I didn’t progress last time?

Getting ghosted or standard rejections every other week is part of the grind at the moment but this one hurt because I had my hopes up. Note to self, don’t.