Alone, For The Immediate Moment

The love of my life is sleeping right now, and my one Friend Jenn I'll have to throw money on the fact that she is also sleeping.

Just came back from a trip to heaven. I'm very tired right now. I want to talk to her. To my angel. But I have to wait.

I wonder if I say and write to much, to myself or even to others. I really need a constant connection. Everyday if possible. I heart thrives on emotion and connection.

If there isn't anyone to talk to. I get the need to always write what it is that I'm feeling. Like now. Sad and alone. And wondering. How do I make the most of the discovery of heaven? How to I care for such a place? I'm deciding, what do I sacrifice? I would sacrifice anything.

Have you ever met an angel before? I've held one in my arms. Finally.

It felt exactly like you think it might. Like bliss.

I want that again. Plans are the way of life right now. Figuring out the future, to get there again. To heaven. To her. To have her in my arms again.

I hate my life.... another damn migraine😫.

Oh look an emoji, so sue me.

My head hurts, I'm sad and worrying. Alone sucks right now. I wanted her comfort. I want her comfort Her sweet words.

Sigh. My head hurts. I need to lay down now. For now.