9 days post op

Sorry if I'm spamming this sub too much.

Past 9 Days have been the biggest up and down I've had emotionally. I've had feelings of regret, panic that maybe certain position won't ever feel comfortable again, worry about what if my balls don't feel better. I'm also extremely excited for being able to shower comfortably. I can't wait to heal and finally see myself. It still feels weird to the touch right now. My balls still sting often. Day 5 I could not walk (even though I was able to go up the stairs like 2 hours after the surgery was complete). Day 7 I could go up and down the stairs slowly by myself. And today I am walking around as much as I want. With a wide stance of course. I'm still bleeding out of the balls. Started day 4 and been ongoing past 5 days. I can feel it flowing, reminds me of a period so pretty uncomfortable. I had a lot of trouble with TSA yesterday. I'm feeling mentally much better now that I am at home. I'm still propping my dick up and annoyed with having to. I can't wait until its able to hang instead, looking down it just looks like I have a constant boner.