I deeply regret tattoos I got underage and the shame it’s brought upon my family and myself

i have 21 tattoos all done underage without proper parental consent. I’m neurodivergent and was in a really bad state of ptsd when i got most of my tattoos. i was coping using marijuana and don’t remember where tattoos are on my body to this day due to the dissociation this caused me and i’ve never been able to get a job because of it. I want to heal and stop getting judged constantly.

People are rude to me and I feel constantly berated by others comments and opinions on them.

They are eye catching in not the best way and it makes it almost impossible to lead a normal life.