I lost my sweet Milo last night to Saddle Thrombosis…

Just as the caption says… I lost my sweet 8 year old kitty Milo last night. It was so sudden. Rushed him to the ER Vet as he was screaming in pain, panting and lost control of his bowels and rear legs. It was a horrific experience. After the vet informed me of what his diagnosis looked like… I made the decision to let my baby go peacefully. She made it clear the survival rate was grim. Working through dissolving the clot and then the rush of toxins to his system after… possibility of organ failure… the fact that he did have a murmur made it clear it could happen again… I am devastated. I feel like I made the right choice to end his suffering and not put him through the treatment. Did I make the right choice? My heart hurts. I have never had to make this choice for an animal before and I feel like a part of me is missing…