I don't think I have much longer

Hi everyone,

I've spent years with a very aggressive alcohol addiction. I've been drinking about a liter of vodka for many years.

The last couple months I noticedy body breaking down on me. I just can't function. And it's not because I'm drunk. It's a physical think I felt my liver hard and swollen, I have been fatigued, I'm a little bit jaundice.

So I got some blood work and ultrasounds done and it seems I have some wear and tear and possibly cirrhosis. The doctors said I can't quit cold turkey because it might kill me, even with medical supervision. I even had a doctor tell me that I might have a year left.

I have been in hostpitals all week and been discharged after 24 hrs ever time. I feel like the system is failing me.

I need to taper but if I am that that damaged, that could kill me too. I'm going to through all the avenues and trying to fix it, but I think I might be too late.

Please, if anyone is in a similar situation or has been, please reach out to me. I have just started this regimen, but I don't know if it's going to be enough.

I know this is all my fault, I don't blame anyone or anything other than myself. But as a guy living in Ontario, I feel like as an addict I get treated as a typical junkie.

I have a good job, I am good at what I do, and this is just me getting stuck in a loop.

Id love to hear from you guys, I'm in for the hardest battle of my life, or I'm dead. So I need some input please. My mother cannot be the one to bury me

I love you all