I envy couples who posts their partners on social media

Problem/Goal: I'll be honest. Nakakaramdam ako ng inggit kapag nakakakita ako ng couples na pinopost ang isa't isa sa social media. Pakiramdam ko parang hindi ako ganun kavalueable to show, parang pakiramdam ko tinatago ako. Not because gusto ko ng likes, pagyayabang or etc. I know envy is the thief of joy pero can't help it minsan. Gusto ko lang maranasan din yung ipinopost ako.

Context: Wala ako sa fb featured, myday once in a blue moon (as in) comments, bihira din. kahit tiktok, facebook. Insta oo pero 46ff lang. I'm not asking po na lahat ng platforms nandun ako. just a simple, take a picture of me and show me. hindi kailangang bongga and eveything. kahit simpleng isang selfie ko lang goods na ako, or picture naming dalawa, BETTER.

sorry if ang messy ng format. i'm kinda hurt and emotional right now while typing.

another context, mapost siya before sa mga ex niya. profile, cover and mydays. I DON'T HAVE A PROBLEM WITH THAT. I'm not the type of person to be jealous of the past. I'm just giving you context, since sometimes I wonder what went wrong or what made her stop posting. I want to understand, para hindi ganito yung nafifeel ko na hindi ako worth it to flex haha

as on my end, I posted her countless times. myday, post, videos picture, ig, phone wallpaper, etc. name it. But now, unintentionally bihira ko na lang din siya napopost maybe because I felt na hindi narereciprocate yung feelings and actions ko.

She won't react sa mga mentions ko before. She won't reply nor comment, react lang. Nagagalit or nagtatampo siya if magpapalit ako ng wallpaper, lockscreen or anything na partner kami. my often reasons are, gusto ko lang or nagandahan ako sa isang wallpaper like demon slayer: kanroji, so nagpalit ako. One time, pinagawayan pa namin yan. sabi niya "kapag may work na pala, nagpapalit na ng wallpaper". I'm offended, honestly. I promise you, i'm not cheating nor giving her reasons to overthink. That's why i'm always dumbfounded and offended whenever she turns the blame on me, as if i'm the one hiding 'us'.

we're wlw. it just hurts somehow na ganito ang sitwasyon haha iykyk

Previous Attempts: Nakipagcommunicate na ako sakanya. Ayoko rin naman siyang ipressure, syempre iba pa rin kapag siya mismo yung gumagawa. Kinausap ko na siya ng maayos, nasabi ko na rin yung sama ng loob ko. nothing's working, nothing changed. help

I think I know deep down the answers, but pls slap me ahahaahha ask me anything, sasabihin ko lahat.