Something is wrong with me

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Background: My mom hurt my feelings a few days ago, she mocked me and she talks badly about me to my dad in a whispers when I leave the room (not paranoid, I mean irl). I tried texting her to discuss it and my texts have been ignored. My parents are in an bad relationship, and she often clings to him for long periods where I become someone they sort of seem like they don't like & ignore. I deal with that OK, but something is wrong with me right now.

I'm in finals week and last night I messed up on a very big final I had to submit at midnight. I started feeling really weird. I felt weird the day before a little too, but this was much more. After I submitted the final (late) I had a breakdown, very bad on the floor all night. Her dog laid nect to me whining and tried to go tell her. She noticed but didnt know why. Sometimes I melt down, but this felt different. My organs felt weird, still kind of do, i can't describe it. Maybe dehydration? Wanted to throw up lately. I was taking meds to be able to get through the day because I've been pushing myself. They were prescribed to me a year ago. I became terrified to take any more meds last night, I was scared they were hurting me. Still scared even though they would help me. I haven't been eating or drinking much since talking with mom. The couple times I left the room to get water she wasn't speaking to me. I ran out of water but i have chips. I've been in bed in the dark since. I have one more final i'm suppsoed to do. No one noticed I'm not washing, or my sounds of distress. It breaks my heart. I have no car or i would seek help maybe. I feel sick. There are flies collecting on my ceiling.

Posted Aug 31, 2025, 12:09 AM UTC

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