Feel threatened after a few words my father said

22 years, male.

Let me start with a simple explaining - unfortunately for me, I currently live with my parents. They're building their own home away from the city, and since they aren't that rich - it takes a long, and a lot, to build one home if you believe me.

Now the problem is living here with my parents. Despite my age they seem to have some sort problems with me. I'll admit I lied to them many times..but the only reason I did this was to protect myself from usual mental problems they give me. Now, they never gave me any support mentally. Only thing they did was to give me something in exchange for my kind energy, but this isn't what I wanted and I was too unkind to explain myself to them. Always abusing me for wrong doing , if I'll learned bad despite the fact that I didn't have enough energy to do so because of their threats that they call "bullshit".

Now moving to today they went to have some sort of "relaxation" in the form of going away from the city, and to relax at the office. Now It's nearly September and I got hard times coming - college for 3,5 years. So, with a lack of their support or anyone's support in general I got mentally exhausted. So I drank alcohol and got so drunk that I even layed down asleep. I wake up 2 hours after with a strong body reaction to uhh.. alcohol because I drank too much simply out of stress and anxiety. So I vomited for 3 minutes and all my fricking father had to say is:

• I'll talk to you later you F*KING alcoholic, Now I don't know about you but I don't feel this as responsive for help but rather a threat to me. I'm scared and I honestly think about suicidal thoughts because I don't want to explain stuff to parents who never understood my shit in life and they just thought about themselves.

I seriously don't wanna talk to my father or ever my mother that is lighter probably in this situation and I think about just ending this all to make it stop? So my parents won't have to deal with the fact that they're the abusing piece of garbage. I'm drinking a lot and this is ruining my life but I don't care about it so I want to just.. end this all...!