Losing hope

I feel so alone. I (f/36) got diagnosed almost 2 years ago. Had to relocate to Arizona recently where I’m alone. I recently got laid off from my job (as an executive assistant) with a company I worked for for 8 years (mass layoff). Does anyone live in Phoenix/Scottsdale that could possibly give me a recommendation for a motility specialist? Unfortunately I’m on state insurance until I can find work again, so I know my options may be limited. I’m 5’7 and wasting away. I was 110lbs at the doctor last week. I don’t have any support or anyone who understands. Single with no kids. The one thing I had was my job with a company I liked, but that’s gone now. I’ve been searching for something else for months but I can’t even get past submitting my resume. It’s just so stressful, I think the walls are closing in on me.

Honesty, even if someone was just willing to talk to me. I don’t know why I’m even making this post. I usually lurk so please go easy on me. I think I’m just desperate and at the end of my rope. I can’t go on this way much longer. I’m writing this with tears steaming down my face so I apologize for the ramble or if this post is all over the place. If you made it this far, thanks for listening. I just don’t see a light at the end of this tunnel.