Over the past week I've caught feelings for my best friend, or at least hidden feelings are finally coming to fruition. I've had multiple dreams about him, catch myself thinking about him and he seems more and more perfect each moment I spend thinking about him. gosh I wish I wasn't on vacation right now or I'd be over at his house giving him the biggest hug ever!!!!

But anyways, let me get straight to the point. I don't want to play the game of secret crush again. Never. It's pointless, and frankly stupid. It'd be better to get it out the way, and over with. After all, nothing good comes from ignoring feelings.

Either he likes me back, or he doesn't.

My only fear is that rejection would send me back into depression. But the better outcome is that I get up stronger, and learn how to control my emotions even better, just like my past 3 breakups/rejections. Not just the better outcome... it will be the outcome, even if it hurts >:3

I state this for myself and for any other secret crushers out there: You are not owed his love. You are not owed his friendship. If he chooses to withhold either of those, it is his choice. You are doing this for yourself. You deserve to be happy, whether that's with him, or giving yourself the chance to find someone else. Either way, the sooner, the better. A week long crush is better than a year long one. After all, you don't want to become too attached to what you can't have. If he says no, it will hurt. If he stops being your friend, it will hurt more. but life WILL go on. You WILL get stronger. And you have NOTHING to lose, because you can't fully enjoy a relationship where you're always longing for more, and you deserve the opportunity to fall for someone else, someone who wants you!!!

BOOM.

I AM doing this on either Monday or Tuesday.

Please hold me accountable.

Thank you :3

What is there to lose? I am strong enough for this >:3