looking for advice from my fellow large-chested dudes

i am DD. cannot afford top surgery for... i don't know, maybe ever. paycheck to paycheck, no insurance, disabled, not happening in the forseeable future.

i have lived so many years just... letting them be there. it sucks. i walk stupid because i subconsciously walk with my hands and arms covering my chest, and it is just... a constant thing in my head. i hate going out, i hate catching side glimpses of my huge chest in mirrors or windows. it sucks it sucks it sucks it sucks it sucks

binding doesnt even work, it just looks like a sports bra. trans tape doesnt work. what the fuck do i do.

my face passes, my voice passes, if my chest is obscured i am gendered male 100% of the time but it is an instant giveaway. ):